Faking it.

The clothes, the hair, the makeup, the jewelry, the attitude, all put on to face the world and create an image that makes your life in this world work for you. Simple enough. But what about when that is not enough? What about when your mind doesn’t let that happen?

Well if your one of those lucky people like me who was blessed with the gift (yes I said gift) of Bipolar Disorder then you know exactly what I`m talking about and if your not well your in for a treat! or at least an eye opener. I`m not going to give you a sob story just the truth. I take medication to make my life easier in this world because the world was so not designed for a crazy ass lady like me!
For the most part I live my life just like everyone else but sometimes my mind gets away from me I have 5 thoughts to your 1, my mood shifts several times in a day sometimes an hour. I can fly into a rage for no apparent reason to anyone around me and I can fall into utter despair just as fast.

To those around me and that don`t know I seem irrational, hysterical a complete fucking BITCH! Sometimes I can feel these shifts, these changes coming on and I can prepare for it, take myself away from the situation or people take some breathes and get through and no one is the wiser….and sometimes I can`t.

There are times when no matter how much preparation, focus, good intent I or the people around me have, I still manage to blow to fucking pieces. I don`t expect you to understand, hell I don`t completely understand but all I want you to know is that person that is a little odd or a little to well put together or seems to be absent from things more often then most might not be doing it by choice. It might be the gift that was given to them at birth that they haven`t quite figured out how to use that is holding them back or keeping them tied up, not everyone is faking it…

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     Lady B.

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What did she just say?!

Definition of; FILTER

according to Urban Dictionary.

: An intangible device that determines which thoughts to actually say out loud to another human being.

I would just like to mention that there were several other definitions listed which really made me question the intelligence of some people.

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I like to consider myself one of those lucky people that possess this elusive “Filter”. Some people might disagree with me but compared to a lot of people I don’t say half the shit that pops into my head!

I always find it funny when I am around people and find myself looking at them and thinking “just stop talking, do yourself and everyone around you a favor and just STOP!” I’m not saying I am the most eloquent speaker, hell I know I’m not but when your at work or in public around people you don’t know you don’t talk about your bodily functions or your sex life! Your boss doesn’t need to know about how drunk you got last night, who you took home and what you did with them!

I’ve met some people….actually I am friends with a lot of people, who go through life just flapping their lips and letting whatever floats into their mind come pouring out of their mouth. Sad part is there are lots of people in this world who have made themselves famous by having no filter. Comedians have always made a living on the inappropriate and obscene but since people were given the ability to post their every waking moment on the internet, it has become a competition to see who can push the limits of propriety without getting arrested or at least getting banned from social media.

Facebook;  I have such a love/hate relationship with you.

The theory behind Facebook is good it serves a purpose, the ability to connect with people and stay connected over great distances and time. But when people use it to provide themselves with the vast majority of there information of friends, family and news in general, I shake my head.

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Personally my opinion is that people have used Facebook as a platform to not have a filter and a safe haven to be keyboard warriors. I highly doubt that that was the intent when the website was launched. (Sorry, this won’t be my last rant about the misuse and overuse of Facebook but I don’t need to sound like a crazy person just yet!)

The worst thing about people and their lack of filters is how it makes other people uncomfortable and how it is getting to the point where as a society we are becoming desensitized. The stupid shit that people say and do doesn’t even faze them, it’s just another Facebook post or stupid video on YouTube or ridiculous picture on Instagram. Then the stuff that they do get offended about are the most asinine and ignorant that it makes my head hurt. Some days I think human beings as a whole would be better off if our over exposure of each other was limited, leave a little to the imagination, leave something to surprise!

But who am I to say I’m only one lady feeding into the problem, right?confused

Lady B.

Insight of the day.

Now we all know the saying “If you don’t have anything nice to say, don’t say anything at all.” Well that thought process worked all well and good before the existence of “Keyboard Warriors” came to be.

You know what I mean, people that would never have the audacity to say any of the things they say on social media (about you or to you) in person. I have been a firm believer in “If you wouldn’t say it to their face, you shouldn’t be saying it at all.” I have been called brutally honest and my response always is “the truth hurts!”

I am fully aware of how much of a contradiction this may seem…Me writing a blog in turn becoming a “Keyboard Warrior” but no let me state this right from the very beginning; I am here to speak  my mind and voice my opinion.

I am not here to criticize, disrespect or be an all out bully, if anything I plan on being a voice for people that feel they have none or simply just agree with my insanity & fucked up sense of humor. That being said I am not perfect and I know I am going to step on toes and piss people off. So please by all means call me on it! Who knows I may end up agreeing with you and you may sway my opinion because that is the difference with me I am NOT a “Keyboard Warrior!”

Lady B.

Well it had to start somewhere!

Weird, Strange, Odd, Obnoxious, Different, Eccentric all words that have been used to describe me among many others I don’t care to mention at this time.

I know I don’t see the world the way most people do but there are a few out there that do understand me, even if they don’t agree with me and there are a few that will at least find me funny! There are many reasons why I should put myself out there and let people know what I think and feel and there are so many reasons why I SHOULDN’T but in the age of social media where a Facebook post an Instagram post or a Tweet can make or break you personally, socially & professionally it’s almost irresponsible not to throw up your walls, set up your sentry and defend against the war I like to call “Social Media”!

So here you go strap on your combat boots, put on your apocalypse gear and prepare yourself for the wild ride that is the world through my eyes. I can guarantee you that you will be offended, I will probably make you angry, you most likely will disagree with me but that is the beauty of this wonderful new age world we live in if you don’t like it don’t read it!!!

No one is making you so just remember that before you judge maybe, just maybe try to look at it from someone else’s point of view…or don’t I don’t really care!                                                 Enjoy! 😉          B.