Embracing the Pain.

It rips the skin as it injects it’s venom bringing on a rush of anxiety and anticipation.
It is to soon to tell what permanent evidence it will leave behind but you know there will be some.
It stings everytime you are touched until the numbness sets in…then you breathe, just breathe.

It’s hard to not love this pain, crave it, seek it out.
Only certain people will truly understand this feeling, most will just suffer through hoping the end result will be worth the pain.
You can’t explain it, impossible to capture the essence.

When will it be enough? When will you stop?
I have no answers for these questions nor do I want to have any.
Maybe one day I will be done but not today….no definitely not today!

Today I will relish in the pain, soak it all in, savour it.
                                     Lady B.



Hooks in Deep.

It’s like you know just when the hold is releasing, you know exactly when to put yourself back into the mix.
I see the world without your hypnotic haze floating in front of my eyes, it is clear and wide open.

But no you can’t let that be, never will you let me be. I can push forward and grasp for what never will be and you will always be there smiling, silently mocking my futile attempts to break free from your everlasting overwhelming, suffocating enthralment.

~Do you love me?  ~Do you miss me?  ~Do you think about me?
In a world with so many options why does it seem like your still the only one? I hate to say I’m done with you but it is for the best, it’s obvious our souls will always be joined but our bodies and minds need to explore.

So I must bid you adieu good friend! I know we will meet again but as of right now….you can have your hooks back.


                                             Lady B.
Photo Courtesy of the one and only Marilyn Monroe.

The Beginning of the End, of the Beginning and so on and so forth.

A new year, a new you, a new…awe Fuck here we go again!